Lost Love (part 1)

When you met me, I was a lost girl, without a single care in the world.
You came, you found me, You touched me, you loved me.
You became the epitome,
Of everything I believed love could ever be.

With your patient love and tender devotion, You opened my heart to a new emotion.
You showed me a future, a different life, one where I envisioned myself as your wife.
You groomed me until I was well refined, and to show my gratitude,
I welcomed you into my heart, my soul and my mind.

But I got contented and took your love for granted,
I had issues and needed to vent it,
It's a pity that you were the outlet I choose,
It's like getting pricked from a torn growing on your very own rose.

For this I am truly sorry, but you know what they say,,,
"Sorry doh pass curry"
Probably the pain was really too much, when I tarnished the vision you had for us.
But I truly never believed you would really bite the dust.

I always believed you loved me more than this, hmmm,
Can't believe these bitter enemies once shared pure bliss.
Can't believe that pure bliss is now distant memories,
Can't believe these memories will one day, fade away.

All The While...

All the while I couldn't let you go, I couldn't accept that we weren't together anymore, I just couldn't understand that you didn't want to be with me.
All the while I felt it was because I loved you too much to let you go, I felt I loved you too much to accept we weren't together any more.
All the while I truly believed I was holding on to Love.

Now I have realised that holding on to you, dragging us both through the heart wrenching drama every single time, forcing us to the most extreme tests of love, could never be Love.
I realised that again I was being selfish, I was only thinking of me and how I felt.
If I loved you, I would be able to let you go, because your happiness would be my ultimate desire.
If I loved you I would be able to accept that your happiness no longer lies with in me,
And I would distance myself, and quietly bear the pain of my broken heart.
If I  loved you, I would want you to be truly happy, even if it meant moving on.

Well, I do love you, with my entire being, with my body, my mind, my heart and my soul.
So I will this time be Selfless, this time I will put your happiness over mine,
And trust in the power of time.
I love you enough to quietly distance myself, and watch you go...

If you ever read this, You know who you are.
I am sorry about everything, but,
All The While...I truly believed I was holding on to love.