The Ups and Downs of Love...

I've been inlove on more than one occasion, and also had my heartbroken on more than one occasion as well, so You'd think, I have a scrap book of Do's and Don'ts, huh, You'd think I'd enter each new affair with more knowledge, skill, and grace than the last...Yeah right.

Each times catches you when you have your guard up, when you've already completed building your sturdy wall so thick around your heart, that all you have to study is aiming straight for the head of every pursuer who even just lingers to long. Next thing you know, He's already behind that wall, actually helping hold your hand steady as you aim...wth!!!

So now, that same thick ass wall ends up trapping you in this new affair, forcing you to fall in love again, and you know you built a freak proof wall, so there's no escaping, So inlove we go again.

Being inlove is so indescribable. It makes you feel beautiful, and purpose filled. It makes days feel meaningful and nights magical. Life looks different, it smells different, it feels different. It feels good,,,all the time.

And that's only when you're inlove, When you're loved back in return, You feel Powerful, you feel Motivated, You feel like Tinkerbell with your pouch of magic dust to sprinkle over anything and everything that doesn't already bend at your will. As focused as you are, somehow you still feel like a kite, flying high, in perfect unison with the breeze, no bigger than that, with the universe.

Being inlove is so indescribable. It makes you feel used and worthless. It can fill your days with stresses, and your nights with worries. Life does indeed look different, smell different, and feels different, It doesn't  feel good...all the time.                                               

You feel so Powerful, that you could rip his head straight off his shoulders, You still feel motivated, this time probably to kill. And Tinkerbell, with her magic dust, is sitting, locked in cage on Captain Hook's bed table. By this time, he had already helped you break down those security walls around your heart, he helped you unpack all your baggage, he had found a place to put your insecurities, and framed your faults, so they went well with the new colour of paint your chose for your life. In other words you're vulnerable and you know it!

You think that stops You? Nope. You love being inlove, you love the way your skin glows, you love the twinkle in your eyes, You love the way every love song talks to you, you love to cuddle up to a good movie, You love his silly jokes, you love his caring touch, you love knowing that everything's gonna be alright when he puts his arms around you, you love his eyes and the way your heart beats faster when you gaze into them, You love his kisses and the butterflies you feel, you love his smile and the way he smells, you love his generosity and thoughtfulness, you love when he takes control so you can relax, you love when he stops what he's doing to listen to you, you love when he understands your 'being a woman' issues(or doesn't make you feel like a maniac at least). And if it stops You miss it.

You find yourself ready and able to endure those horrible days, just so you can get back the amazing ones.